I'll Be Seeing Ya

I originally started making Koikatsu character cards because I enjoyed it, and wanted to display my talent making them. I really wanted to make friends with other card creators, and I did meet a few people, but not quite like making friends I originally hoped for. I found a lot of people would shameless straight take free cards I made and repost under their names, them taking credit away from me, some would go a step further and sell or lock them behind a Patreon wall. I've also had trouble finding places to post cards, the Discord has rough elitists (I once got banned for suggesting making a music mod), the Illusion card booru had trolls that would vote my cards into the extreme negative, and Kenzato, you only need to visit there to see why I avoid it. It was clear, I wasn't liked in the least bit, but I also noticed nobody liked anyone in the koikatsu community. It's fine.

The year 2023 has been pretty rough on me, in early January I lost my brother to leukemia, and it kinda took a toll on my sanity for a bit. To make matters worse in February, I was being sued by a ridiculous person for 250k over a fender bender. The person suing me actually knew me when we were younger, and some of the legal paperwork served to me had some personal jabs and insults. Luckily my lawyer was a professional, and this ridiculous person settled for a very much lower amount than my insurance offered (basically they lost money trying to sue me).

This year was miserable, I was depressed and I struggled to get out of bed. Then I started getting messages demanding for cards to be made, it started with just one dude, and I constantly made card requests for this guy. He kept pressuring me for more and more cards, and I was forced to tell him about some of the personal issues I was going through, he gave me no sympathy and harassed me for cards. I had to finally tell him straight "no more" and to piss off, but then he tried to make me feel bad for doing so. As soon as I stopped the first guy a second popped up, there were a total of five people demanding cards throughout this year (some of those requests were shit and unreasonable too), hurling insults, and death threats. I tried to ask them to calm down, and it was unnecessary to be nasty to me, but hey they thought I owed them. Once again I let some of them know about my personal shit, some backed off for a week, then jumped back on harassing and insulting me. I had to block a few of these guys which is sad because they were kinda becoming friends, and had to have a long talk with another few. Hence my thoughts on retiring from Koikatsu card making.

It never got me the friends I wanted to make, and it's just been misery over this year with people being unreasonable with their demands and never leaving me alone. So I am done. At least I had a few good moments when I first started, but I need something else to do that'll be better for me in the end. Peace.